Detective Riley offers his sympathy. At least, that is what it feels like. That is not to say that what Detective Riley offers me isn't enough — it is very kind, and more than what I would expect from someone who doesn't know me that well yet. But it doesn't feel exactly like how other parents react when they learn that I have three sons elsewhere. Or maybe Detective Riley does have children, but he's not as close to them because of his job. That would be understandable.

I wonder how hard it would be to be a detective and have children. I know it must be possible, but I wonder if some don't because they think it's too dangerous for their families. I probably could have gone into business or law if I stayed in my career after having children, but I decided to stop, let Louis be the one with the career while the boys were young.

I don't regret that choice, but sometimes you can't help but wonder.

"It is a big change, not having them here. And yes, of course it's hard," I say, nodding. "But I think I feel better with them safe at home than if they were here. Can you imagine? We have no idea what that portal is going to do to this city in time. I wouldn't want to expose my sons to that, ever. So even though I miss them... honestly I hope that they are not on the other side. They're better staying at home. Really."