That makes him smile, not at all surprised that Dutch went in that direction, knowing she won't be surprised either, not by his answer.

"She called me just before my last mission. She asked me to come help her, but I didn't realize how serious things were and I went to do my job instead." An awful decision he carries with him every single day. "My employers decided to have my partner... terminate my contract. They thought I was gone, so I went to find Jessica and found her husband lying about her death instead."

The smile turns grim, but it doesn't disappear. "He's not with us anymore either. After that, everything felt pointless. I went to work on drinking myself to death. I was homeless in New York, making sure I wasn't found by my former employers and I was halfway to dead when Finch found me instead."