What she's saying makes sense and John nods along, but it's true a part of him still feels distant. From all of it. Were this a year ago, he knows where he would be right now, he knows he'd have found a bar or a liquor store and he'd be halfway to quietly drunk already. He'd never made a scene, he'd never caused problems, not unless someone came at him aggressively, he was a nice, quiet drunk and a big part of him wants to be that same nice, quiet drunk right now.

Because eventually it would lead him to where he'd been headed all those years ago.

He can't do that, though. Not now, not here. Darrow is different, it's changed his life and he has to make the right decisions now.

"Maybe," he agrees. "We should get together as a group and talk about it. I'd like to see what everyone would want to do. It's good to know where you stand, though, it's good to know... well, that maybe we can keep things going."