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Not many people know it about him, but John had grown up on a farm. His adoptive mother had run one, a small plot of land in comparison to most, after his father had been killed in action and John doesn't always associate it with the happiest times of his young life, not after losing his father, but at the same time there are still good memories.
His mother had been happy, after all, as happy as he imagines she could have been, given their loss. And even as a child, that had meant the world to John, as he had often been focused on the happiness of others. That has never really changed, he's still like that, but with Carter's help over the years, he thinks he's gotten a little bit better at allowing himself some moments of happiness.
Which is why he finds himself at the stables every so often. He tends not to ride, because it's been years, but sometimes even just being in the company of the horses reminds him of his childhood, of a time when he was happier than he is now, and he thinks he's lucky to be able to experience that. After everything that's happened to him, it's certainly unexpected.
He's stroking along the flank of one horse in particular when he sees a man ride in with a beautiful horse and he wanders in their direction, admiring the animal. His mother would have known all the reasons why the horse was superior to others, but that's never been John's area of expertise. All he knows is the horse looks sleek and well fed and he offers a faint smile to the man.
"Beautiful horse," he says as he approaches. "Is he yours or are you just taking him out for a ride?"
His mother had been happy, after all, as happy as he imagines she could have been, given their loss. And even as a child, that had meant the world to John, as he had often been focused on the happiness of others. That has never really changed, he's still like that, but with Carter's help over the years, he thinks he's gotten a little bit better at allowing himself some moments of happiness.
Which is why he finds himself at the stables every so often. He tends not to ride, because it's been years, but sometimes even just being in the company of the horses reminds him of his childhood, of a time when he was happier than he is now, and he thinks he's lucky to be able to experience that. After everything that's happened to him, it's certainly unexpected.
He's stroking along the flank of one horse in particular when he sees a man ride in with a beautiful horse and he wanders in their direction, admiring the animal. His mother would have known all the reasons why the horse was superior to others, but that's never been John's area of expertise. All he knows is the horse looks sleek and well fed and he offers a faint smile to the man.
"Beautiful horse," he says as he approaches. "Is he yours or are you just taking him out for a ride?"
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The best that Aragorn could offer was to ride him through the countryside as often as possible. It was a release for them both, a way of pretending they were out in the wild with hardly a road in front of them, rather than the stifling feeling of the city. He knew that even back home he would have had to give up his lifestyle as a Ranger in order to ascend the throne of Gondor, but it was yet more difficult knowing he could not leave this city even for a moment.
The man who admired Brego as Aragorn led him back into his stall was not someone he had seen at the stable before, but he inclined his head in welcome all the same. "He is a horse bred for kings," Aragorn told him, casting Brego a fond smile. It was not vanity; Brego had been Theodred's horse long before Aragorn met him. "He arrived in this city with me, for which I am grateful but he is less so."
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His expression doesn't change, though, and a moment later he reminds himself there's no reason for him to want to prove otherwise. This isn't the world he's come from and not everyone in Darrow is constantly lying.
"That is lucky," he agrees when the man says they came to Darrow together. "I know it's not quite the same as a horse, but I was here without my dog for a few months." Bear is more than just a dog, though, smarter than most.
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"It is not so different," he argues, shaking his head. A man's bond with a dog is no less than with his horse. Brego had carried Aragorn from the brink of death and saved his life, had borne him through several battles that proved his worth and Aragorn treasured his friendship, but he believed this man could have the same love for a dog.
"It would have been difficult to arrive here alone," he admitted. Even so he would not be truly alone; Eowyn was already in this city when he arrived, and it was not so long afterwards that the Lady Galadriel arrived, too. Yet the company of his horse, with whom he could take comfort without needing words and formalities, was something of a relief. "I am glad your companion is with you now."
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Finch had needed Bear more than John ever had, although he has to admit he's a comfort now that Finch is gone.
"Maybe a bit more difficult for you," he says, although considering he'd been on the verge of death, maybe that's not quite true. John is basing this entirely on the man's speech, on the cadence of his sentences. "It sounds like you're not from a world quite like this one."
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"Quite unlike it," he agreed, the hint of a smile on his lips. This world was very different from the one he had left, but in some ways it was better. He missed his friends dearly and truthfully he still felt lost, ripped from the path he had resigned himself to, but there was peace here. He could not deny that it lent him some measure of comfort, knowing that the Shadow did not fall over this land. "I am Aragorn," he introduced himself, clasping a hand to his chest to greet this man in the way he was still accustomed. "The land I left was called Middle-Earth."
This city, they told him, was in a place called Earth, which seemed remarkably similar, all considered. None here knew of the White City or the Mark, however, so their similarities appeared to begin and end with the name.
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"John Reese," he say. "I'm from somewhere very much like this. Bigger by far, but not much else has changed."
It's safer. It's an odd thing to be able to say even after the Purge, but it's true. There are no acts of terrorism, there's no super intelligent computer trying to kill him or anyone else. Regular, awful every day people are the sort of thing John is trained for and he can deal with what Darrow throws at him, so long as Samaritan stays in his version of New York.
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"This city is large as cities go, but still only a city," Aragorn mused, nodding his head. It was bigger than Edoras, perhaps even larger than Minas Tirith, but he still missed the rolling countryside outside of those cities.
He did wonder what it must be like for this man, who came to such a place similar enough but without any way of getting home. This seemed nearly another world to Aragorn, and as much as he had searched for a way to leave this place, it all still seemed like something out of a dream. He suspected it would be more frustrating still to feel some familiarity yet be unable to return home.
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There are some ways in which he's very happy to leave the world outside of Darrow exactly where it is.
"Do you want to return home?" John asks, then smiles slightly. "If that's too personal a question, I apologize, feel free to ignore it. I just know there are some people who would rather stay here. Or people who can't go home, even if the opportunity were afforded to them."
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The question did not bother him, and he shook his head slightly to indicate as much. This city was untouched by Shadow and there was some part of it that appealed to him, but it was not his home. Too much lingered in the balance back in Middle-Earth, too much that he needed to return for. Not only for the friends and loved ones that he missed, but for the future of his people.
"I came from a war," he told Reese. He did not know why he trusted this man at a glance, but trust seemed less dangerous in this city than home, and Aragorn was a good judge of character. "I would not wish to abandon my people; there was still much to do."
Even had they won the war, even if Frodo had managed to complete his quest, there were still cities to rebuild, a new world to shape. That was his destiny, and though he had fought it for many years, it was strange to be separated from it now, having finally accepted his path.
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"I don't know if it helps at all, but some people say... well, that time works differently here," he says slowly, carefully. "I had a friend who came here after I did, months after, but he had seen me only that very morning. I'm here, but somehow I was still back there. Am still back there, I have to assume."
There are people whose word he would never trust so easily, but while Finch might be a private person, he's never lied to John. He would never lie about something as serious as this.
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More importantly, it meant the White City still stood.
"There is one here," he said slowly, unsure of whether Galadriel would appreciate being spoken of. "She came from my world, at a time beyond that which I remember." He wished she had given him more detail, but he would have to make do with what she was willing to provide, however little. He had long grown accustomed to Elves knowing more of his fate than he himself, so it did not irk him so much as it might have.
"It is still difficult not remembering, not knowing myself the way things went." The world had been tilting on the edge of a knife, poised and ready to fall one way or another. Even with the assumption that their Quest had succeeded, that Aragorn had returned to the White City and the crown that awaited him there, his mind was hardly comforted.
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It helps to know there's some version of him still back there, still protecting Finch, but he wishes he could be there, too. And yet, at the same time, he doesn't. Because of Karen.
"I have friends back there and I worry about them," he says. "It's hard to do away with that."
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More than anything he feared for Frodo and Sam, those he had sent alone into the fire of the Enemy. He could only pray that their quest was successful, that they had somehow managed to escape the Cracks of Doom without harm.
Perhaps the Lady Galadriel would tell him nothing, but he could still hope. "I, too, worry for my friends. But we must trust in their own strength, so long as we remain here."
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What he can do is remind himself they're a team. Together he has to believe Finch and Root and Fusco can find their way back to each other and do what needs to be done. He has to will himself to forget how they've lost others. How Carter died. How Shaw was taken.
"I'd like to say it's as easy as that," John says with a smile. "But I think we both know it isn't. When all of you together make up a unit, when each of you is just a piece of what's necessary... well, it's harder than that."
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He didn't respond straight away, mulling the words over. There was a truth to them, he knew. For all that he believed his friends would live on without him if need be, he knew his place in the world, how his piece was necessary.
Nine had been chosen, each with a part to play. He had known that since the first day they set out. Theirs was not a quest that would succeed or fail on the courage of one hobbit, though Aragorn knew Frodo would still have the largest part to play. He nodded in agreement, wishing not for the first time that he knew more of what was to unfold back home. "It is hard," he agreed. "You came from something important," he guessed. It was not a question, and though he did not mean to be presumptuous, he thought he could safely assume as much.
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"I did," he says. "And it helps a little, the idea that I'm back there still, but at the same time, I still wish I knew what was going on. It's tough, not knowing how things have played out."
People have died, after all. He wasn't able to stop Carter from being shot, he knows the same could happen to Finch, no matter how hard he tries.