Even though he had thought he would marry Jessica, had been preparing to ask her when the Towers went down, John still thinks it's safe to say this is the most serious he's ever been, too. With Karen, for the first time in a very long time, he can see a future with someone.

"Harold asked me once if I still ever wanted that kind of life," he admits. "We were watching a family we had helped, happy couple, their kids. We were both so far removed from it and I think- well, we had both wanted it once."

John looks at the playing family, the one they're keeping tabs on, and decides he needs to say it. He and Karen have their secrets and even so, they've built a deep, abiding trust. This is one secret he doesn't think he ought to keep any longer. "I did want it. I still do. I thought it wasn't meant for me, but maybe..."